“Ups and downs”
I know that is normal in life but for me, they are often magnified and blown out of proportions in my head.
I don’t think I am ill anymore, but it is just something that I will need to continuously work on in order to improve the way I handle situations in life.
It is in me to feel like I’m responsible for everything, it is in me to feel that everything is urgent, it is who I am to cry over things that I feel attached to, it is also sometimes in me to feel like disappearing will make all the problems go away.
I know “…but that’s who I am!” is not an excuse because we grow as a person after every single experience. However, I also know that evolving something fundamental takes time.
I’ve been told that I am too harsh on myself, and after quite some battle, I think I finally agree.
It doesn’t matter what title I give myself, a daughter, a girlfriend, a friend or a chef, I am still human, and it is normal to be able to feel emotions and be affected by them.
So I guess at times where I feel overwhelmed by something, I should:
- step back, look up and appreciate the fact that I am still breathing;
- calm down, think logically and see the big picture; and
- know that it is okay, because I can only get better from here.