I have this tendency of overthinking.
It is very much under control these days and I don’t go crazy anymore (haha), but it is inevitable to have doubts, fears and uncertainty.
I guess I can say that I’m constantly discovering and rediscovering myself. Like I mentioned before, I like planning & routine. However, life does not happen according to any rigid plans.
There are moments where I am more conscious about myself than other days – my mind is clearer, my work is better, and I am happier.
However, when life gets overwhelming, I lose track of what I learnt, momentarily, struggle a little, try too hard to normalise things, and then I get a little upset with myself.
It is then that I need to always remember to breathe, step back and re-prioritise. This is when yoga comes in for me. The practice really helps clear my mind and I wish I have more time to go more often.
I shouldtrust my instincts and just do it sometimes… Otherwise I’ll never know what the outcome will be. This applies even more when I’m scared because it means that I’m learning and stepping out of my comfort zone!
Anyway – this post is just yet another reminder for myself to really live properly and not be clouded by the impurities that can come with all the adventures and challenges in life.
I know I write a lot on how to stay positive and the importance of it but there are days where I feel like I can no longer keep my head up high and stay positive. It’s not that something has happened in my life but sometimes, it’s just too difficult to fight against the negative thoughts that linger in my head.
“I’m not good enough!”
“I don’t have the skill!”
“I don’t know what to do!”
“I’m not the right person!”
made shiny chocolates after many doubts
Hello May Ling,
As I am writing this letter, you are feeling a little bored, a little unmotivated and a little tired of doing what you’re doing.
That’s OK. Do you still love the industry that you’re in? Are you happier than before or if you were to be working in a corporate job? Are you happier in general? If you answered yes to any of the questions above, keep holding on.
Life is like a graph, it has ups and downs, so long we have the resilience to bounce back once in a blue moon when you’re feeling down, then that is okay. Resilience comes mainly from within, but if you need help or a little push, you have supportive family, friends and mentors that you can speak to. You may be sliding at the moment, but sliding is good, it gives you time to discover yourself and give yourself power to bounce back up. Because in life, you have to.
Please remember the following points: